Raman’s Story
At PSI, we understand that storytelling has the power to save lives, and we are honored to provide a space for survivors to share their stories. This article is part of a subsection of the PSI blog dedicated to survivor stories. Please note that this story has not been edited, and caution is advised as distressing themes related to perinatal mental health may be present. If there are specific trigger warnings for an article, they will be listed below. Links to resources can be found at the bottom of this page.
Depression and Anxiety Return
My dreams of being a mama finally came true at the age of 35. All I’ve ever wanted is to have a family of my very own, and I didn’t think postpartum depression or anxiety would impact me because I had dealt with my depression and anxiety for years with therapy and medication prior to getting pregnant. After a tumultuous divorce in my early 30s, I was remarried and finally in a loving marriage with a supportive partner. I was healed and ready for this adventure. But the reality is, I learned the hard way, that there is no “cure” for depression and anxiety. For some, it will pop up again and again and becomes a game of whack-a-mole.
Taking the Leap
I felt so guilty for being depressed and anxious since I had everything I had ever wanted; a family of my own. A healthy baby boy that was thriving. It took me nine long months before I finally sought help from my ob-gyn and also re-engaged in therapy. I wish I had known about the support of Postpartum Support International but I wasn’t aware of it until a few weeks ago when my sister shared it with me, and now I feel compelled to share my story so other women like me know they aren’t alone and they have nothing to feel ashamed about. Help is available in so many forms: therapy, medication, doctors, online support groups, family, and friends. The key is to engage in at least one of these options, which is so very hard to do when you are needing it most. But taking that leap will be the best decision you can make for yourself and your baby. Trust me. And trust yourself.
If you could provide a piece of advice to another parent in need of help, what would you say?
You are doing the best that you can with what you have. Asking for support is brave and it means you know what you and your child need.
Get Help
Learn More about Perinatal Mental Health Disorders
Free Online Peer Support Groups, including Perinatal Mood Support
